Update

Once in a while, I like to enjoy a lime and cilantro chicken salad at the Nordstrom Cafe.

Probably best to KEEP

m-m-m-m-moving. I am not excited for Christmas--especially the rituals--but I am excited to hang out with Rach. I will kidnap her again and take her to Trader Joe's with me.

I am also excited to see Alison!

In life,

Some people like not knowing what will happen next.

I don't. It makes me nervous.

I hate

acoustic folky singer songwriter bullshit (except woody guthrie).

You're welcome.

(and breathy female vocalists)

Know what I mean?

I'm nobody! Who are you?
Are you nobody, too?
Then there's a pair of us — don't tell!
They'd banish us, you know.
How dreary to be somebody!
How public, like a frog
To tell your name the livelong day
To an admiring bog!

Thanks girl.

Night Beats

Oh man. Admittedly, I am a sucker for minimalist two pieces (please see: my hopeless obsession with the Kills), but these guys just nail it. I'd write more, but Dave Segal already covered EVERYTHING.

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Oh my god

I like psychedelic music. This is such good news!

Not to beat a dead horse.

But=genius.

Love that so much.

La La La La La Leotard

My cousin gave me this CD of songs by TacoCat and No Bunny (maybe there are other artists too but if there are he didn't tell me and that's his fault) which I'm listening to now. I don't know if No Bunny have any cool cred/street cred or whatever but I really like them. Excerpt: I called you up on the telephone/You were last on my list but at least you were home. That's good, right?
Also, TacoCat. HOW DID I NOT KNOW ABOUT TACOCAT?! Theoretically, they are everything I seek in any band. Actually some of the songs are a little bit too cutesy, rhyme'y', etc. but really, how did I not know about them? Either way, I like them a helluva lot more than BS pastoral FOLK POP which is actually tolerable once in a while ("Ragged Wood" is fast enough to keep me awake), to be fair. I've been reading a lot of Richard Meltzer's work lately. If you were alive in 1970 and at all in tune to what was going on with music, you know what he did. And you know that none of what he wrote made any sense at all.

Do you think it will rain this evening?

Fuck seattle! Fuck this weather!

I think this poem is accurate

Shit! I thought I hated poetry.

Bukowski "so you want to be a writer"

if it doesn't come bursting out of you
in spite of everything,
don't do it.
unless it comes unasked out of your
heart and your mind and your mouth
and your gut,
don't do it.
if you have to sit for hours
staring at your computer screen
or hunched over your
typewriter
searching for words,
don't do it.
if you're doing it for money or
fame,
don't do it.
if you're doing it because you want
women in your bed,
don't do it.
if you have to sit there and
rewrite it again and again,
don't do it.
if it's hard work just thinking about doing it,
don't do it.
if you're trying to write like somebody
else,
forget about it.
if you have to wait for it to roar out of
you,
then wait patiently.
if it never does roar out of you,
do something else.

if you first have to read it to your wife
or your girlfriend or your boyfriend
or your parents or to anybody at all,
you're not ready.

don't be like so many writers,
don't be like so many thousands of
people who call themselves writers,
don't be dull and boring and
pretentious, don't be consumed with self-
love.
the libraries of the world have
yawned themselves to
sleep
over your kind.
don't add to that.
don't do it.
unless it comes out of
your soul like a rocket,
unless being still would
drive you to madness or
suicide or murder,
don't do it.
unless the sun inside you is
burning your gut,
don't do it.

when it is truly time,
and if you have been chosen,
it will do it by
itself and it will keep on doing it
until you die or it dies in you.

there is no other way.

and there never was.

Are you trying to write to get girls? Are you copying other people? Are you ENTIRELY SELF-INVOLVED ? Guess what! You don't have a chaaaance.

(*I actually disagree with that last one because most all writers/musicians/artists are narcissistic egomaniacs. To some degree, you have to be.)

Anyway, Bukowski, way to go, you're probably right. I probably should take his word for it and quit now because lately I've fallen into the "forced" category. Furthermore, I don't write that much and I'm not that good at it.

Oh it's also hard/impossible to write what other people want to read. I think that very few writers have any sense of this or maybe they just don't care.

I should have gone to music school.

I should have gone to music school.

Too many possibilities. The internet offers too many POSSIBILITIES.

this

esss my life.



thanks.

60s girl groups

I cannot express to you my boundless appreciation of the Shangri-las... They are saving my life right now. I just discovered"Maybe" and "Out in the Streets." Mary Weiss your voice is so incredible!
Oh my god.

So many candidates

sssssssssoooooooo few contenders.

Lately I feel a lot like this...

....college

is not romantic.